About 20 hours left. Butterflies. Yellow butterflies. They're everywhere. They seem to be following me. I'm eating more and more chocolates. I need the toilet every now and then. I try to keep myself busy. But the butterflies. The yellow butterflies. They still won't go away. They seem to love me so much. Don't they know I hate them? Butterflies. You're killing me from the inside. Go away. Go away butterflies.

I'm going crazy.

It's me in the picture. Third time experimenting with this, and I still suck. Need moreeeeeeeeeeeeee practice. Results coming soon, fuck.

My first ever lineart work. Yay.

(I forgot where I took this pic from, just found it on my desktop)

I know it isn't that great or anything. Well hey, I'm still new in this. Gonna practice more. And learn some other stuffs too. It'll help if I get into design (hopefully). Anyway, thanks to Sis for teaching me a thing or two. Doing this is fun. Hee.

I like this song by Lily Allen. It makes me feel good(?)

School starts today (hahahahahahahaha). Hakim got three warnings from three teachers 'cause of his long hair (I told him not to cut it yet haha). Anyway, I kinda of miss school. Not exactly school, not the studying part. I miss recess. It would be my favorite subject if it's considered as a subject. Hah.

I'm tired. My right eye is still red. Since a few days ago. And it's heavy. So, farewell.

Oh, I finally got my ice-cream. One thousand and one cravings to go.

NF!BM

New Year's resolution: 1) Be a better person and daughter. 2) Make Mom proud.

Hopefully I can stick to this year's resolution. Hopefully I can make Mom proud with my 'O' levels results. Hopefully I won't let her down this time. I'm feeling cranky. Well, I get cranky when I'm under a lot of stress. Not having problems this time. Just thinking of my results. That's stressful enough. I'm hungry. I've already eaten, like an hour ago. And here I am, hungry again. Did I tell you I tend to eat and eat and eat when something's bothering me? I'm needing a bar of chocolate right now.

I've been thinking. Of a lot of things. Or shall I say, my future. I've always been lazy since forever. Since I was a kid, I've been told. Mom used to tell me stories about me being frickin' lazy. Whenever Mom takes me out and when I'm feeling tired, I'll just sit down in the middle of the road and not budge until Mom picks me up and carry me. And that time, Mom was carrying Hakim. In her stomach. See how lazy I used to be. I am still lazy though. Lazy throughout primary school and secondary school. I hate studying. I mean, who doesn't? Whoever loves studying is weird. But I find it fascinating though, hah. So when I said I'm going to be a better person, I meant not being lazy anymore, being more understanding, and simply being a better person who helps anyone whenever is possible.

I shall start believing in whatever I do too.

Isn't it great? 2009 is finally here, and I'm getting my 'O' levels results soon. Great, not. A friend of Ain told her that the results will be released on 9th January, which is next Friday at 2pm. NEXT FRIDAY FOR GOD'S SAKE. Next frickin' Friday. Of course I want to collect my results, but my fear is I won't be able to get into my desired polytechnic and course. I really want to get into IMD badly. Oh man oh man oh man. Nine frickin' days left (if the date's correct). No, eight more days. It's already 1st January, I forgot. Damn it.

A new year, a new beginning. That's true, I guess.

Anyway, not working tomorrow since it's the New Year. I mean, not working today. Sis went to meet her friends, and she's still not back yet. As for me, I don't bother going to countdowns. Hah. I'm supposed to sleep, but I can't. Everybody in the house are asleep, except for me. Well, I'm going to spend my day today catching up on my sleep (hahaha). I'm losing my voice. I'm having a cough too. I hate guys/girls who smokes. No, hate is a big word. K, I dislike guys/girls who smokes. That habit, I mean. I always have bad coughs that will last for ages because of the cigarettes' smoke. Well, my Dad's a strong smoker. What's so great about smoking anyway? I can never understand that.

So, I'm going to treat Sis to a performance, Breakout. Ain wants to catch it too. If Hakim's a good boy, I'll bring him. I think. I'm craving for candy floss. Doughnuts too. Oh, and pretzels. Ice-cream too. Oh yes, it has been ages since I last drank bubble tea. I'm craving for bubble tea too. My craves will never end. Hah.

Farewell fellow earthlings.

NF!BM